THE HISTORY
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there once was a girl named jean
who had a friend named stephanie. one day stephanie sent jean a random person's cell number and told her that that person liked anime as much as she did. so jean sent the random person a message. at first they only talked about the different kinds of anime that they liked and compared each of them. but as time passed, they grew closer. jean found out that the boy's name was alex
. she found out that he was a month and seven days older than her, she found out where he studies, she found out that even though their characteristics are totally opposite to each other, they still remained friends. even though they only communicated through text messaging, she still loved talking to him. even if she knows that they would just spend the whole day debating on who's really the most good-looking man or woman, or that he would just annoy the living !@#$$ out of her, or the fact that she would have to stand his sorry attempts at humor which, surprisingly, are not such sorry attempts at all. yes, you could say that they were pretty close for someone who hasn't seen each other in person yet. and jean was satisfied with that. she didn't need to see him all she needed was to talk to him.
of course, not everything was good between them. there was once a time when jean said something to alex and he took it the wrong way. he got angry even though jean apologized and told him that it was all a big misunderstanding, that she didn't mean it that way. although he said that he has forgiven her, their relationship was strained and it was hard for jean to talk to alex for some time. luckily, they were able to go over that obstacle and eventually, everything went back to normal.
but as they say, all good things must come to an end. alex gave jean a really awful news that day. he told her that he would be moving to houston and study college there. yes, jean was sad. she would miss him terribly especially since it wouldn't be that easy to communicate with him after he has moved away. but that wasn't the worst part. the worst part was that he told her not to send him anymore messages. after that last message, jean didn't reply anymore and that was 'supposed' to be the end of their friendship. jean did agree not to text him anymore but every single day, the words alex left her with kept on playing again and again in her head, pretty much like a last song syndrome, and it hurt her everytime. jean would just suddenly cry everytime she would recall those words, thinking that alex hated her and wanted to cut off all sorts of communication with her.
this kept on going until the day jean realized that she had to do something before alex leaves. if she left things like that, then nothing would change at all. so she typed down a message and sent it to his e-mail pointing out to him that she didn't want to stop talking to him. that even though he was out of the country, they could still communicate through e-mail or chat. jean thanked him anyway for the friendship that he has given her just in case he wouldn't change his mind. the good thing is that alex replied to her e-mail. his message was full of apologies, taking back the things that he had said.
he said that he was simply preparing himself to his 'life of seclusion'. he was actually happy that she admitted that. he himself told her that he missed her too. and once again, everything was back to normal.
the time came that he has to leave but still, they continued to send messages to each other. it may not be as often as before but it was enough to make them happy.
alex even gave jean's number to one of his friends ('sep) so that he could keep her company when he couldn't. funny thing to jean was that talking to his friend felt like she was talking to the real alex. they were the same in every aspect. (at least almost the same.)
soon though, from sending each other messages often, it became seldom, then eventually, stopped altogether. even alex's friend stopped sending text messages. jean was sad and blamed it on both alex's and her own busy schedule. they both barely had free time to talk to each other.
when jean finally did have the time to send alex updates about her life, she had already lost contact with him completely. it seems like he had turned away from the internet for life, which by the way, was the only source of communication they had left.
it was saddening but jean had to face the facts. a friendship like that, where its foundation was only formed by text messaging, wasn't supposed to last that long. she was lucky that IT DID LAST THAT LONG. at least their friendship lasted some years and the only thing that made her glad about their separation was that at least, she had some memories to look back to.
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i miss you alex! i really do! i miss the way you would call me 'loyda my love!' even though i really hated that nickname! i miss the way you would insult the guys that i liked and i would do the same to the girls that you liked. i miss the times when you would tease me that you really did like me and would want to court me, which i never fell for by the way. i miss your jokes. i miss your crazy way of looking at things. i miss the way you would relate to me how addicted you are to coca cola. i miss our random moments. i miss everything about you! I MISS YOU!
i wish you didn't have to leave and go to houston to study. if not, we'd still be talking to each other right now. but that would be selfish, wouldn't it? i just hope you're doing well wherever you are right now... and i hope you haven't forgotten about me. i'm also hoping that we'd get to talk to each other again... although that seems pretty impossible seeing that i don't really know how to contact you... i have like a thousand different numbers that you used before to text me and if i were to send you a message right now... i wouldn't know which number to send it to... >.< it would be awkward to text 'sep right now. i mean we haven't talked for ages and i would text him just to say 'hey... do you by any chance know how i could contact alex?'. >___>
*sighs* i'll just pray to God that someday... if ever... you'll get to read this. i'm being idealistic here but what the heck... it's my lj account and i can say whatever i want here! ^^;; anyway... i'd be the luckiest person in the world if ever you'll get to read this and go 'aaah... i think i used to know someone named jean... maybe i should try to contact her again...' *sighs some more* yes... really impossible... but i won't lose hope! ^___^ i'd love to talk to you again alex!
i do hope you feel the same way too. ^^
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